It was the first year of my pilgrimage and I was
somewhere along the highway between El Paso
and Dallas when I was picked up for vagrancy.
I have never heard of the FBI investigating
people for vagrancy but I was. A man in a black
car stopped and showed me his badge. He didn’t
even demand that I come with him, he just said,
“Will you come with me?” I said, “Oh yes. I’ll be
interested in talking with you.” I got into his car,
but first I scratched a large ‘X’ on the highway
where I had been picked up. During the time I
was counting miles, if I left the highway I would
make a large ‘X’ and then return to the spot to
begin my walk anew.
He took me to this prison and said, “Book her for
vagrancy,” and I went through the routine. They
first take you in for fingerprinting. I was fascinated
because I never had fingerprints taken before—or
since! He then took a chemical and, just like that,
he got all the black ink off my fingers. When I
was wondering how long it would take to wash it
off, it was off.
I spoke to him just as I would speak to
anybody I was with, and something interesting
happened. Apparently he was used to being
treated in a very uncooperative manner. When
I treated him like a human being he gave me
a lecture on fingerprinting and he showed me
the charts. It was very interesting. I had really
not learned that much about fingerprinting
before. People were waiting in line, but I
didn’t know that until I came out of the room
and saw the long line.
Then they took me in to be photographed and
hung a number around my neck with a chain.
When they were photographing me from the
front and side, I remembered all those pictures
of wanted people you see in the post office. I
remembered how mad they all looked, and I said
to myself, “Let me be different.” And I smiled
as sweetly as I could. There’s one smiling face
somewhere in rogue’s gallery!
Then they took me in to be questioned. They
actually sat me under a strong light—it’s
supposed to have a psychological effect on you.
But I had already been on television at that time,
and I said to myself, “Do they really think this
is a strong light? They should see the lights in a
television studio!” At that time TV lights were
not only bright but hot.
They first asked me if I would answer any
question, and I said, “Certainly, I will answer your
questions. Not because you are law enforcement
officers, but because you are fellow human beings,
and I answer the questions of all my fellow human
beings. Whatever you are in your official capacity,
you are first and foremost a human being. And if
we could get together as human being to human
being we can get done much faster.”
And it ended up that way!
They began with the confusing technique. One
would fire a question at me. Before I could
answer the other would fire a question at me. I
had to keep saying, “If you will pardon me for a moment while I answer the other gentleman’s
question.” Then they got down to meaningful
questions such as college students ask me. How I
warmed up to the subject!
Then they referred to physical violence as being
the intent to hurt. They said, “Would you under any
circumstances use or sanction the use of physical
violence?” I said, “No, this is contrary to God’s laws.
I would rather have God on my side than any power
on earth.” I told them the story of the disturbed
teenage boy who hit me during our walk together.
Then they said, “Suppose it was necessary for you
to defend a loved one?” I said, “Oh, no, I do not
believe I could defend a loved one by disobeying
Divine Law.” I told them about the eight year
old girl who had been left in my care and the
experience we had with the psychologically sick
man who tried to harm her.
Then they got into things very philosophical
and said, “If you had to choose between killing
and being killed, which would you choose?” I
answered, “I don’t think I would need to make
such a choice—not as long as my life remains in
harmony with God’s will. Unless, of course, it was
my calling to be a martyr. Now, that’s a very high
calling, it’s a very rare calling. I don’t believe it’s
my calling— but the world learns to grow through
its martyrs. If I had to make a choice, I would
choose to be killed rather than kill.”
They said, “Could you give a logical explanation
for such an attitude?” Here I was, attempting to
explain the attitude of the self-centered nature
and the attitude of the God-centered nature so
they could understand it! I told them that in my
frame of reference I was not the body. I was just
wearing the body. I am that which activates the
body—that’s the reality. If I am killed, it destroys
merely the clay garment, the body. But if I kill, it
injures the reality, the soul!
And they put me down as having a religious basis
for my pilgrimage. But suppose I had said, “After
all, you’ve heard of self-defense— why, even the
law recognizes self-defense.” This might have
been considered legal—but not religious.
There was an occasion when I felt that I was
indeed battling with the elements. It was my
experience of walking through a dust storm which
sometimes blew with such force I could scarcely
stand against it, while sometimes the dust was so
thick I could not see ahead and could only guide
myself by the edge of the road. A policeman
stopped alongside me, threw open his car door
and yelled, “Get in here, woman, before you get
killed.” I told him I was walking a pilgrimage and
did not accept rides (at that time). I also told him
that God was my shield and there was nothing to
fear. At that moment the winds died down, the
dust settled and the sun broke from the clouds. I
continued to walk. But the wonderful thing was
that I felt spiritually lifted above the hardship.
Concealed in every new situation we face is
a spiritual lesson to be learned and a spiritual
blessing for us if we learn that lesson. It is
good to be tested. We grow and learn through
passing tests. I look upon all my tests as good
experiences. Before I was tested, I believed I
would act in a loving or non-fearing way. After I
was tested, I knew! Every test turned out to be an
uplifting experience. And it is not important that
the outcome be according to our wishes.
I remember one experience when it said in the
local newspaper I was going to speak at a church service. It showed my picture — front and back,
wearing my lettered tunic. A man who belonged
to that church was simply horrified to discover
that this creature wearing a lettered tunic was
about to speak at his church. He called his
preacher about it, and he called his friends about
it. Somebody told me who he was. I felt so sorry
that I had somehow offended a man that I didn’t
even know. So, I called him!
“This is Peace Pilgrim calling,” I said. I could hear
him gasp. Afterward he told me that he thought I
had called to bawl him out. I said, “I have called
to apologize to you because evidently I must have
done something to offend you, since without even
knowing me you have been apprehensive about
my speaking at your church. Therefore I feel I
must somehow owe you an apology and I have
called to apologize!”
Do you know that man was in tears before the
conversation was over? And now we’re friends—
he corresponded with me afterward. Yes, the law
of love works!
Another man once said to me, “I’m surprised
at the kind of person you are. After reading
your very serious message on the way of
peace I expected you to be a very solemn
person, but instead I find you bubbling over
with joy.” I said to him, “Who could know
God and not be joyous?”
If you have a long face and a chip on your
shoulder, if you are not radiant with joy and
friendliness, if you are not filled to overflowing
with love and goodwill for all beings and all
creatures and all creation, one thing is certain:
you do not know God!
Also, life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles
back at you. I just put a big smile on my face
and everyone smiles back. If you love people
enough, they will respond lovingly. If I offend
people, I blame myself, for I know that if my
conduct had been correct, they would not have
been offended even though they did not agree
with me. Before the tongue can speak, it must
have lost the power to wound.
[Reproduced with glad consent of the publishers – Friends of Peace Pilgrim]
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